✖ Turning over a new leaf this Autumn ✖

After days of unbearably scorching hot and exhausting summer, part of Japan were left cleaning up after rain overnight this weekend. Last Saturday marked the Fall season. This means we're finally came to days below 25 degree Celcius again. Cloudy skies and mild weather just generally makes me a more cheerful person, i guess. But I just want to be in my room for a little while, perhaps doing nothing. I didn't even follow my friends go fruit picking.  I'm not in a hurry, though. I have 6 months without classes, so I can go anywhere and anytime I like. Autumn also brings new stuffs to try ― and I'm looking forward to it.

 The scenery from my room. Wait till the trees begin to shed their leaves.

✖ Boys Day Out ... and basically we ended up doing boys' stuffs ✖

Yesterday we went out to Sendai for some bowling games. Just chilling out after final exams. After bowling, we did some window shopping at Softbank shop ( iPhone 5 window shopping ). Then I had to follow the boys to Uniqlo because they wanted to buy some pants. Well, I can say at least two of them are metrosexual, on the outside of course. I love their sense of fashion. And.. they said they do workout, not everyday but yeah. I'm wondering perhaps they would look like werewolves in Twilight, if they were shirtless. Okay, don't imagine that! But, God... I just hate when men do the shopping. I had to wait for them at least half an hour. I don't know what men usually do in changing rooms, but I swear next time I won't wait any longer than that. We finally had our dinner at the usual spot, Mango Tree Cafe, a Thai cuisine restaurant located inside the Parco building. I had Phat Thai, which is one of my favourite meals the restaurant offers. 

Here are some photos of our outing. Nothing special, just had fun with ourselves :)

This reminds me of my early childhood life. Having a group of male friends is full of joy and fun, but there is at least one thing missing in my life - no girls i really click with. If anyone asked me, i would say that I am not so social, and I'm very homebound. I do want someone to hang out with, i mean female friends, but there are things that I'm scared of. I don't like telling stories, and i don't do the talking. I prefer to listen and usually I'm not the one who start conversations. People might think that I am a bit arrogant, but who cares. Let me stress this out one more time. I just want someone, to sit around, get coffee and watch movies with. And of course I'm the type of person who don't really like putting any labels on their friends : best friends, good friends, best buddies, or anything. I appreciate the friendship but I don't believe in labels, since born :)

✖ Sorry for not fulfilling your dreams ✖

I've failed everyone for not being accepted into Tokyo Institute of Technology. I was honestly a bit disappointed because there's no other options left. The university opens the application for study transfer only once in a year. People say it is always hard, but I think if i pushed myself for a little more, I could probably passed it. I just wanted to say that I am deeply sorry. Well, I just couldn't say the words in person. I failed them, and i regret. i can't really say how supportive they are, in every ways. my parents ; my research lecturer, Mr Asada ; my Japanese language lecturer, Mrs Shimada. A bunch of thanks for helping me stay motivated.  

For me, by having failed it for the first time, it means something. Something that I will hardly forget, and I feel as if I won't get over it for a few months. Allright, enough with the depression stuffs. What i have to be worried about now is that my eyebags' problem getting serious. Yes, i know. I think i'm not getting good sleep lately. Perhaps i should get back on the track and start focusing on myself. I don't want to simply give up without a fight. Its worth dying for.